Monday, June 30, 2008

10 Random Things About Me

1. I love music!!! 'nough said :p

2. My favorite thing to do is read, anytime I have some down time and I have a good book to read you know what I'll be doing

3. I have never been on a boat, for fishing or water skiing, or just period.

4. I was born is Texas, but have now lived in Oklahoma for 12 yrs. I have lived in the same house for that long, and have been going to the same church for 11 yrs.

5. I don't like to show my feelings very often, its something I'm working on. But if you ask me I will tell you, I am not afraid of confrontation.

6. Some girls are addicted to buying shoes, well for me its bags........I love them!! And even though I have way too many I'm always looking at new ones.

7. I have been to three 'corners' of the United States; New York, Florida, and California, and would really like to go to Washington to complete the set lol.

8. I am a very easygoing person, and unless something is morally wrong, I'll probably just go with the crowd, even when I would prefer something else.

9. I can't stand negativity, from anyone. I will go out of my way to avoid people who complain, and say things about people.

10. I am a VERY organized person, if something is messy I can't think clearly until I clean it. And yes, I do alphabetize everything......but I am still somewhat normal lol.

So, that's me. Probably very boring, but hey who are you to judge? :p
And I'm not gonna tag anyone but Maria 'cause she hasn't posted in eons!!!

be free

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Starbreather = My God

Oh wow. I just had an eye opening experience........Just finished watching a talk by Louie Gigligo about how BIG God is, and I'm not talking like an elephant big, or even the moon kind of big. I mean super ginormous wordscan'tdescribe kinda big. OMG!!!!!!!!!!

And now, as I sit here typing this, I feel about as small as one of those molecules that scientists talk about. That you can't see with a regular microscope, much less your eyes.......

But, you want to know the real kicker?????

He. Made. Me.

He. Loves. Me.

He. Knows. Everything. About. Me.

And He actually cares about all my so called problems, that aren't really problems, more like inconveniences.

In spite of all that I feel so loved, and protected. Why wouldn't I? My creator, my Abba, my God is a universe-maker and a star-breather (btw, do you have ANY idea how big the stars are???? check it out sometime)

Another cool thing and evidence that God really does care about us......there is this molecule thing that holds together our cells, it literally is the thing keeping us from being globs of jelly. Well, when I saw this picture of it I was floored, and completely overwhelmed...check it out.

I still can't stop looking at it or thinking about it........
I really can't think of anything else to say, that doesn't sound completely inane.
So, I think I'll just leave you with that.
be free

Monday, June 9, 2008

Waiting, its not what its cracked up to be

'I'm sure God has a plan'

I have heard that more times than I can count over the last week, and while I know its true I can't help but be impatient, I want to know RIGHT NOW what God's plan is. Because, if you ask me, right now I really don't understand, I mean why would God NOT want me to go on a mission trip to serve Him, to lead people to Him?
But, for that very reason, I have not been able to get mad at God, how can I be mad for Him not wanting me to go on a mission trip for Him? My heart would not be in the right place.
So, now I am just trying to find the good around me, and there is A LOT!!! I am starting to realize how very blessed I am, really! Even though many many things may not go exactly my way, who am I to judge what is best?
That sounded good didn't it? Now if I could just remember it the next time something comes up that reminds me of Africa, or rather my not going..........
Just FYI, my passport is still not done......and at this point I really don't care when it gets here, but I would like to 'talk' to someone about the stupid government system that apparently doesn't care either. There, now I feel a little better, having posted my ranting on the Internet :p

In closing, God does have a plan, even when you can't see it and may never. But I do believe that one day I will look back and say 'ahhhh, that's why.' Until then, I will just let it go.

be free

I'm letting go Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control Of my destiny
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
So I'm letting go
-Francesca Battistelli