That is the way I have felt for the last few months, I've been rushing around just doing the next things and not taking a moment just to sit back and think. Last night I went to a leadership meeting, and while I was there we started talking about some stuff and everything just kind of came into focus for a minute. Of course now my thoughts are all jumbled up again, but I think I'm on the right path. When I write things out they usually make more sense, so here are some of my thoughts;
- First we talked about Truth, as in The Truth, which is God.
- There are two sides; Truth, which is reality. And Lies, which is an illusion
- The Truth is not relative, negotiable, changeable, or debatable - Truth is Reality
- I either believe The Truth or I believe a lie, there is no middle ground
- The Spirit of Truth (Holy Spirit) guides me in Truth, that is the only way I can walk in Truth
- If I cannot 'hear', than I do not belong to God
Then we talked about some lies that we believed, because if it is not Truth than it is a lie. That was really mind blowing and I am still trying to wrap my mind around it........
But I also do not ever want to stop searching for Truth, to come to a place where I think I'm good enough I can stop trying now. I want to always keep striving to know more and dig deeper into God's Truth. Because God is Truth and Truth is God.
One of the lies that I believe is that I can do good by myself, I let my pride take over and I really believe that I am better than other people. When The Truth is that I am no different, that I am the lowest of the low, that if not for the grace of God I would be like him or like her. And that anything good that comes out of what I do is ALL God, period.
I read this verse a few weeks ago and really liked it, but I remembered it last night it just calmed my spirit and gave me peace;
"That they would seek the Lord, in the hope that they might grope for Him and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us; for in Him we live, and move, and have our being."
I'm not sure I feel any less jumbled, but now I'm not jumbled alone :P I hope that you are still searching for Truth and are not satisfied with what you already know. If you are, come to You Grow this August with an open heart and you won't be satisfied for very long.