Summer is here :)

Hello peoples, sorry about not posting for.......a long time. Anyways, I've been trying to find a routine since coming back from the Arkansas trip, (which was amazing, and I'm still sorting through all the things that happened). Since it is summer and all of the things that I am usually busy doing are over, what do I do now???? So because I didn't have anything to do I decided to makeover my room. It sounded like a good idea at the time, but right now as I contemplate going to my bedroom it doesn't seem so brilliant. Today I started this project my switching dressers with my brother, but that dresser needed to be repainted, so I dumped ALL my clothes and other miscellaneous items on my bed. I put one coat of paint on the dresser, but you have to wait twelve hours to put another coat on. So here I am, looking at my gi-normous mess, feeling a little overwhelmed and wondering what I got myself into.........
I'll try to post before and after photos when I finish, IF I finish lol.

be free
~noel~

Hi Ya'll......

Hiya peeps, whats happening? I'm in Arkansas relaxing after a looooooong weekend at a children's conference here in Searcy. I am having so much fun, and God is teaching me so many things. I can't believe that this trip is halfway over, I miss home, but I don't want to go home. Those are a tired girls emotions for you lol. Love you all :)

be free
~noel~

And So It Begins.......

.....The Absolute Craziness and Mayhem.
and I mean that in the fondest way, I am really excited about all the conferences coming up, I am just a little overwhelmed. But I like being busy, the tired part..not so much. I am already tired and today was only the first setup day *sheesh*.

So this was all to say that I probably will not post for a while, not that I do all the time anyway.....but this time I will have an excuse lol. Pray for me, I really want to be used by God for great things.

be free
~noel~

letting mySELF go....

Have you ever felt like you have been stumbling around in the dark for a long time......
Then, all at once, everything comes into focus. You can see things so clearly, things you didn't really want to see. I feel like that, only the things I see I don't know how to change........

I can see how really screwed up I am....all of these things that I have been hearing about for years, things my parents, siblings, and friends have said...and now I can see them ALL......and its really bad.

Whats worse is I don't know how to change, I have been this way so long that I don't know if I CAN change. My heart keeps telling me that I don't have to do this alone, and that I CAN change through the blood of Christ, but my mind is having trouble believing this.

I will not give up though, I am determined to figure this out and surrender my stupid pride and self-righteousness.

be free
~noel~

P.S. This is a song I just started listening to, and it has really encouraged me. I just listen to it over and over, telling myself that this is TRUTH, that no matter what is happening in my life God IS my JOY!!!!

And He set me on fire, and I am burning alive.
With His breath in my lungs I am coming undone.
And he set me on fire and I am burning alive.
With his breath in my lungs I am coming undone.
And I cannot hold it in Remain composed.
Love's taken over me So I propose the letting myself go.
I am letting myself go.

You are my joy.
You are my joy.
You are my joy.
You are my joy.

And He set me on fire, and I am burning alive.
With His breath in my lungs I am coming undone.
And He set me on fire, and I am burning alive.
With His breath in my lungs I am coming undone.
And I cannot hold it in and remain composed.
Love's taken over me and so I propose the letting myself go.
I am letting myself go.

You are my joy.
You are my joy.
You are my joy.
You are my joy

I need to catch my breath, I need to.
I need to catch my breath, give me a moment now.

You are my joy.
You are my joy.
You are my joy.
You are my joy.

I'm laughing so hard
And I'm laughing so hard
And I'm laughing so hard

-You Are My Joy, by David Crowder

sunrise to sunset

Sooooo, its been a while, sorry about that. Its been a mix of nothing to write about really, and not wanting to write about the same things I have been writing about. You know the whole I'm-so-depressed-I-don't-have-a-job-I-need-money-what-am-I-going-to-do-with-my-life-wah-wha-wah......you know the usual.

Anyways, life has been good. Slow, but that is good. The ski trip was fun, but VERY tiring. Apparently that is what happens when you have a lot of responsibility and only get 6 hours of sleep a night.

I am starting to get very excited about all the things I have going on this summer, and a little overwhelmed. I am still not sure how God is going to provide, but I'm not worried....much. He has already provided some funds, but not all.

Change......I don't like change. It is very hard for me to adapt and be happy about it. I would much rather kick and scream and make things go back to the way they were. But change happens anyway, and mostly I am accepting it.....not very happily I might add. Some changes I might not mind, like a job or a plan for my life, but here I am back on the subject I was trying to avoid.

Have I mentioned that I really don't like cold weather, and I am way past ready for spring to be here????? Well, I don't and I am. I want to wear my tanks, flip-flops and shorts. I want to sit outside and drink lemonade. I want to swim in my grandpa's pool and get a tan. I want to be able to get dressed without thinking about coats, hats, scarfs and gloves. I want to put all my boots and winter clothes up and get out my summer dresses. I want I want I want......... :P

I guess thats about it.......for now. Hopefully the next time I post I will be able to talk about how warm it is outside.....I can dream anyway lol.

be free
~noel~

Au Revoir......

.....to all. I shall miss everyone, but will be having so much fun that I bet you miss me more, just kidding :p.

I am leaving my house at 2:45 in the morning (yes that is still night), and will be traveling to Colorado for a week of rest and relaxation. In between cooking meals and all that good stuff.

I am so ready for this break, I need some time to just be quiet and think. And Colorado is just the place to do that, it is so beautiful and different than here.

be free
~noel~

so little time......

*deep breath*

*let it out*

This last week so busy, it was insane.
My family and I were involved in a basketball tournament. It was fun, but so crazy. I went to at least 14 games, probably more. And I ran the clock in most of them, and for those of you who have never ran the clock before it requires a lot of concentration, and is usually very stressful. Friday night I went to a get together with my Wednesday night class and had so much fun. We played basketball for at least 3 hours, and even though I had been around basketball all week it was great.

Usually it takes me a week to recover from a week like that, but this week I have NO time to even rest. I leave for the ski trip on Sunday, and I have SO much to do before then. Whitney and I are planning/cooking all the meals, so instead of my personal packing being my priority this week, planning/shopping/packing all the food is. I am freaking out just thinking about it. I still have all my regular stuff to do also, You Grow, Character First, etc.

If I just get through this week I can relax, I am REALLY looking forward to the ski trip. It is going to be so much fun, it is always different but amazing.

May God bless your week to be less hectic than mine :)

be free
~noel~